Sunday, June 9, 2019

A Dark Corner

I spent last week sorting and printing the beginnings of a novel that has been buzzing around in my mind for a little while.  I started in earnest on March 1.  I set a goal of 1,000 words a day five times a week to get me started.  I flew through March and April.  Happily sitting; words pouring out of me.  

Then I hit Easter.  My main character took me on a fairly dark journey through Holy Week.  I myself had a lovely Holy Week.  Wonderful, bouncy energy at our church; garden in full bloom; family brunch, etc.  Even the stations of the cross on Good Friday weren't as solemn as other years -- we went to the children's service and a number of children from a Coptic group joined us, so there were new faces and a great sense of community.  

I've done little fresh writing since Easter.  Yes, I got busy at work; yes, I have houseguests.  But I had some time this week so I printed and hole-punched and found a fresh white binder to put everything in.  I even found a great photo of Stella Abrera as the Lilac Fairy to put on the cover (working title). 

I have nearly 40,000 words.  Nothing to sneeze at.  Remember that "The Great Gatsby" is only 47,000 words.

I sat again on Friday to work on some fresh content.  Ok, so the main character is in a sad little corner.  Let me jump forward and time and start at a different place (one of my favorite things to do).  I managed 700 words in about an hour.  But I just didn't like it.

So, remind me again, why am I doing this?

Friday, January 6, 2017

Back Again

I started this blog in 2009, when I took a year off to complete my memoir. Since then, I opened a law practice and actively blogged on my website there for four years (and taught myself how to use Wordpress more or less). More recently, I've been posting my pieces on Medium.com.

I had an alarming few minutes this week when I read about the layoffs at Medium. What would happen to my stuff? Why did I ever trust a third-party to be the place to find my stuff?

So that brought me back here.

But the truth is I haven't been writing much lately. Wait -- that's not quite accurate. I've been writing almost every day. Diary entries, weird little prose poems, lists of hopes and desires. But nothing that fits within a neat definition of novel, short story or even essay. Perhaps I can get away with prose poem.

So maybe I'll give this a shot again. I changed the title from "Southern California Is My Desk" to "Kathleen.Caterina" -- reflecting my passion in recent years to try to speak Italian.

So perhaps check out my pieces from Medium.com

Or look at my Instagram account, where you will see lots of fountain pens, ballet stuff, food and travel.

Or just check back here and see what I have to say.

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

First Find the Forest

I’ve always been intrigued by the saying “he can’t see the forest for the trees.” Of course, it means that someone is so mired in the details of something that they can’t see the overall picture of what is going on. But the use of “tree” and “forest” imagery makes it hard for me to see the saying as a warning or something negative. What’s wrong with focusing on the trees?

As I’ve studied yoga and mindfulness I’ve become even more puzzled by the expression – because the whole point of those practices is to train ourselves to focus on each moment or, if you will, each tree, indeed each leaf, at the expense of continuing to obsess about what the entire forest is up to.

So it was ironic that two weeks ago when I was in northern France and had a day to go see the iconic patches of cobblestones that form the important parts of the famous Paris-Roubaix race – something I’d been looking forward to for months if not years – I had trouble getting to the most famous cycling forest of all – the Arenberg Forest.
Paris-Roubaix is a one-day 150 mile race that goes from a suburb of Paris north to the gritty city of Roubaix. The race winds its way through the countryside and in doing so covers about 30 miles of cobblestone sectors, which have helped give the race the name “The Hell of the North.” And the most famous of all is a 2.5 kilometer section that goes through the Arenberg Forest, which is located right outside of a small mining town called Wallers. I was determined to see this hallowed ground in person, to stroll along its length, and perhaps to even drop to my knees and let the damp of the spring creep up thorugh my clothes. But first I had to find it.

Now, I’m pretty good at using Google maps and figuring out directions but I’d found it next to impossible to plan how to go see the Arenberg Forest. I simply couldn’t find this iconic straight stretch on Google maps – perhaps because it is closed to traffic. I scoured message boards on cycling sites, I emailed tour operators in Britain, I emailed the hotel where we would be staying in nearby Valenciennes, all to no avail. I couldn’t even get a reliable route map of the race. All I had was a list of thenames of the cobbled sectors in the order in which they would be ridden. So before we left on our trip I sat down with a map and did the best approximation I could of the route and figured I needed to leave the rest to chance.

On the day we were visiting the route, I pulled out my list and tried to put one teeny little town after another into our GPS, without much success. We finally struck gold with Beavry-sur-Foret, which was about the eighth cobbled section I wanted to see, so we drove there. I figured we would start there and see if we could backtrack.
We drove through the little town and then finally spied a little chartreuse colored sign that pointed the way to the route. We followed that street for a few blocks and then saw another small sign pointing to the left. Really? A major international sporting event and the only thing to mark the way is a series of under-sized signs tacked to random lightposts? Ok. Their race, their rules.

We eventually found our way to the cobbled section and I got my fill of strolling along looking at the blue and pink stones (I was surprised at how pink some of them are). Then, since we had discovered the secret of the chartreuse arrow signs, I figured it would be easy to backtrack through the earlier cobbled sections and find the Arenberg Forest.

Not so fast. Not so easy. We drove for about an hour and a half through a series of increasingly depressing tiny red brick towns. But not a cobbled section to be found. And barely any more of those signs.

So, I decided it was time to give up for the day. I would show the receptionist in the hotel a picture of what I was looking for and hope she would know where it was and that she wouldn’t laugh at me.

Then, we turned a corner and I saw an arrow sign. We followed it a few blocks and made another left. And then I saw them – the rows and rows of white campers. Eureka! One of the telltale signs of a great cycling event. And there at the end of the street was the beginning of the forest.
We pulled into the first parking place we saw and hopped out of the car. I walked up to the barrier that prevents cars from pulling into the alley of cobblestones and took a deep breath. It was as creepy and exciting and foreboding and exhilarating as I hoped. There were lots of trees, yes, in even lines down each side. But I wasn’t focusing on them. Not yet. I had finally found my way to the forest.

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Abigail Thomas

A New Year's morning treat -- came across this article about Abigail Thomas called "Abigail Thomas: Accidentally Deliberate."

I love Thomas's writing. For many years her book "Safekeeping" was on my desk to remind me that there are many ways to tell a compelling story and that I don't need to be tied too much to the narrative forms and techniques we are taught. It's always been a good antidote to me after going to a conference or workshop where we are critiqued only on the first page of a work. (A digression on that -- I'm so tired of being told that our work needs to sell itself based on just the first page when pretty much every book that I admire does NOT just jump in on the first page but lets the story warm up a bit. I sometimes feel I can tell when a writer has been told by an editor/agent/friend that they must do this -- you end up with a disjointed first page or two that is yes, very readable and exciting, and then on page three we are back to where it seems the writer really wanted the story to start.)

I don't know where my copy of the book is right now. Maybe I lent it so someone and don't remember? I like to recklessly lend books. One of the few reckless habits I have.

I've thought of "Safekeeping" many times in the last year as I have sometimes found myself saying (with as straight a face as possible) that I am working on a series of prose poems about a Belgian professional cyclist. And it's true. That's what people get for asking a writer what they are working on and expecting an honest answer.....

I also enjoyed "A Three Dog Life" -- her later memoir.

This article mentions her "Thinking About Memoir" which I liked but not as much as the actual memoirs she writes. I've given that book as a gift to people who are just starting on their writing journey. I can think of two people who have mentioned to me what a strong impact that book had on them. So keep that in mind.

Friday, December 27, 2013

Best Books of 2013

Every year between Christmas and New Year’s I prepare a list of my favorite books of the year. In 2013 I read 103 books. My husband noted that this means that I met my goal of reading fewer books in 2013, since my average for the last several years has been two a week. So I made it by just one book!

Here is my list of the best of 2013. They are listed in the order I read them – not order of importance. They are also not all newly published books. Some, like John O’Hara’s “New York Stories,” are older than I am (but I note that reading those short stories gave me renewed enthusiasm for the short story form). The list is a mix of fiction, short stories and non-fiction. I read a good bit of mystery, especially Northern Irish and Japanese noir this year. None of those books made the list this year but I want to give a special mention to the new series by Jonelle Patrick, which are set in Japan. She has released three so far and I thought they were all great.

The Yellow Birds – Kevin Powers
The Wife – Meg Wolitzer
My Beloved World – Sonia Sotomayor
The Good House – Ann Leary
We Are All Completely Beside Ourselves – Karen Joy Fowler
And The Mountains Echoed – Khaled Hosseini
Mastering the Art of Soviet Cooking – Anya Van Bremzen
The New York Stories – John O’Hara
Billy Lynn’s Long Halftime Walk – Ben Fountain
The Barbarian Nurseries – Hector Tobar
Bobcat – Rebecca Lee
The Dinner – Herman Koch
A Constellation of Vital Phenomena – Anthony Marra
The Interestings – Meg Wolitzer
Mary Coin – Marisa Silver
Good Living Street – Tim Bonyhady
Americanah – Chimamanda Ngozi Adiche
Saving Italy: The Race to Rescue A Nation’s Treasures – Robert M. Edsel

Sunday, December 8, 2013

The Banishment of Nathaniel P.

I've gotten to be a more judgmental reader as I journey further down the path of being a novelist myself. I used to NEVER leave a book unfinished. I would white knuckle my way to the end, bleary-eyed and anxious, perhaps only allowing myself to skim a bit near the end.

Now, I have something like a 50-page rule. If I'm not completely caught up in the story or have some other reason to keep with the book, it's a goner -- tossed in the back seat of my car to be returned to the library.

That happened yesterday with the The Love Affairs of Nathaniel P. by Adelle Waldman. I got to about page 80 before I realized I just didn't care about the character and that in fact it was making me feel uncomfortable to read any more about him. DOn't get me wrong -- Adelle Waldman seems to be a terrific writer and the fact that she created a character that I so actively disliked is amazing. But I just didn't want to spend another three to four hours in the room with him.

As I often do before abandoning a book, I go on Goodreads to read what others have to say about it. For this one, I was dismayed to see Ron Charles' 5-star review. I really like Ron Charles and respect what he has to say. I felt better when I saw the review posted by "Elizabeth": "Turns out Nathaniel P. is a self-absorbed dick. End of story." I smiled. I felt justified. Out came my bookmark and to the back seat of the car for you, Nathaniel P!

This morning I picked up "The Dinner" by Herman Koch from the pile beside my bed. I'm only 56 pages in and I'm entranced! I want to sit here in my pajamas all day and read.

I'm so glad I banished Nathaniel P. But I will very much look forward to reading whatever Adelle Waldman comes up with next.

Friday, December 6, 2013

Rinascimento














I like to pick a theme or word for a year.

For 2014 my word is "rinascimento" -- Italian for Renaissance.

I'm picking the word now because for me the year goes from Thanksgiving in one year to my birthday in the following January -- so it actually covers a 14-month period. That's a thematic year for me.

I was pretty happy when the word occurred to me a few weeks ago. I'm about two years into trying to learn Italian, through a combination of weekly lessons at the amazing Spectrum Languages in Irvine, Pimsleur tapes and reading the cycling coverage in La Gazzetta della Sport. So I wanted an Italian word, even though I haven't been to Italy since 2010.

The word is also appropriate because I'm recommitting to my novel, which has been lingering in my laptop for a LONG time now. So let's see what we can get going in the 418 days that remain in the year of the rinascimento.

First step - breakfast with my writing notebook at Pascal's Epicerie in Newport Beach. It's been my Friday morning start of the writing week for several years.